I have 2 extra Silverstein tickets for April in Myrtle Beach and I have no idea how to sell them. I’m not even trying to make a profit! I really hope I manage to find a buyer because I don’t want them to go to waste! Plus I could use some of the money I spent on them back since I had some unexpected expenses recently.
Slowly but surely I’m starting to set up my room the way I want to. I’m so used to being unable to set up my own space, it’s nice to have no worries about moving soon or my space being being invaded or destroyed by others. I like my little writing desk setup with Sephiroth to the right, Sora to the left, and the little Tanjiro figure I assembled as the centerpiece on my writing desk. It’s simple… But I’m really not used to having my own stuff/space so I love it. It’s the simple stuff that help me combat my depression like having a safe living space, my own area/room, And simple decorations I love that have to do with my interest.
I know it’s just a writing desk, to a lot of people, with nerdy decorations. To me… It’s growth. It’s moving beyond my past. It’s a piece of me that I can show my interest and passions. It’s surviving attempts to end my life. It’s gaining back a part of my life after losing everything. It’s taking more care of my mental health. It is my writing desk and I went through a lot to get to this point. So excuse me if this sounds really dumb or something I shouldn’t be proud of but I am. Today, I’m very proud of it and the fact that I’ve made it here. It’s simple. To some, it’s nothing to be proud of. But being alive today, especially when most days are a mental battle most people never see or can even imagine, is absolutely something to be proud of. If I had my way, I would not be here today. Thank the stars I didn’t get my way. I may not feel the same tomorrow but tonight I am proud. I am here. I am alive.
Thank you all for reading my mental health post. Some of you have been around for a long time and know I struggle with my mental health. There’s been a few times where I really thought I was about to give up. A lot of you have always been so supportive, loving, and caring. I truly appreciate all of you and don’t think I’ve forgotten about it. I have such an amazing community on my Tales blog and some of you are on my main. Some of you have been here for a very long time and thank you so much for sticking around and always being kind. You all spread a lot of positivity and kindness and that’s exactly what I try to promote and spread. Sometimes I get so down and forget that but when I lack in it, you all come through and are there to be there for me. I’m sorry I haven’t always taken care of myself but I’ve been doing pretty well the past 18 months aside from the past month, which is why I started reaching out and posting about it. I’m trying. I really am. And you’re all so amazing and I love you. Thank you so, so much for being here. You’re the light during my dark times. I love you all and I mean that. Thank you for being amazing, kind, and thoughtful. Continue to be you, spread positive, love, and hope. You’re all such amazing people. I truly do love you all!
I spend so much time bottling up emotions I forget what it’s like when someone actually wants to hear how I’m truly feeling. After being 100% open about where I’m at, crying, and just being heard…. I just. I don’t think the other person realized how much it means to a person like me. I spend so much time in depression without being able to tell anyone how I truly feel. How emotionally hurt I am and the distress I’m in. Always being the one to help others without judgement but being deathly afraid to be helped and opening up in fear of being judged… It’s nice.
So I know most people don’t realize it or think too much of it… But check on your guy friends.
Let them open up and be 100% honest without judging them. Most of us are in some sort of emotional distress but society tells us our mental health doesn’t matter as much. A lot of us feel like we need to be emotionally strong, always, and too never be vulnerable. Some of us bottle stuff up and let it eat at us and damn near take us out. I’ve been in so much pain recently. I forget that my mental health matters and there are people that are genuinely concerned about me and actually want to help/listen.
I understand being a male has “societal privileges” but for a lot of us, we don’t get to benefit from the privilege and we feel like we aren’t heard. And when we do try to speak about where we are at, it’s usually met with more of a negative response than a positive one, only making us close up more.
For a long time I was told to “man up” or that I was too emotional for a guy. I needed to get over it. I need to be the strong foundation for others. I’m not allowed to talk about how I’m truly feeling and if I do, I need to leave most of it out because guys shouldn’t just go around showing vulnerability. I’ve been told all these things in one way or another. I don’t think a lot of people realize how much guys hold things in and are so afraid to be open about where we are at.
More men are committing suicide and I’ve lost a couple over the last few years to it. You all have almost lost me… I don’t want to die alone but I feel more and more hopeless as time moves further along. When I say I’ve been at my breaking point for a long time now, I mean I’ve been one thought process away from ending it. I’ve been so close to the edge, the smallest nudge could send me over.
I’m not saying all this to receive pity. I’m saying it because I’m so scared of what will happen to me if I don’t let it out. Being scared to die alone is the worst fear for me because the more time that passes… The closer I am to ending it without trying to find out what will happen and if I’ll have someone in the end. The longer I remain alone, the worse my fear becomes a reality, the anxiety builds, and the closer I get to giving up because it seems so much more like a reality, that I can’t fathom the point of continuing to live on an ever dwindling hope that my fear won’t come true. You would think there would be more of a reason to continue but when the hope lessens, the reason to live and fight that fear also goes with it.
I really went off on a tangent here. I’m sorry everyone. If you get one thing out of this, if any of you actually read through it… I want you to check on your male friends. Some of us are not okay.
Some of us are tired and ready to leave. A lot of us are hiding it because we are told it’s off-putting or weird to open up. So check on your guy friends… Really all your friends. But I guarantee you some of your guy friends are barely hanging on but too afraid to talk about it.
I don’t want to lose anyone else.
I don’t want to lose myself.
Eventsticketcenter.com is a website that exploits the current ticket sales and acts as a medium for scalpers.
Long story short, I bought two extra tickets to Silverstein/Dayseeker in Myrtle Beach, SC at the House of Blues. I accidentally bought 2 tickets from Eventsticketcenter because it was the first website that came up when I searched for Silverstein tickets in Myrtle Beach.
After making the purchase, I realized I could get a cheaper price and not have to rely on tickets being sent the day before the show. I went ahead and got tickets from the link The House of Blues provided. Now this was my mistake from not doing more research. Long story short, the ones from TEC (ticketeventscenter) cost $50 each while Livenation sold them for 25 (both excluding fees and ticket insurance). I have the Livenation ones which sent me the tickets immediately and are ready to go while TEC doesn’t sent tickets out until the day before the show. They do this to exploit people and scalp others trying to go to the show. It basically took my $50 per ticket price, made a profit, and is now letting me resell them on their site. The shitty part is I have to sell them for $70 to get close to breaking even.
They’re basically third party scalpers. If you are buying tickets, please don’t use TicketEventsCenter!
Granted, it was my fault, I should’ve done more research, I can see how others could fall for it. Let these websites die out!!!
The tickets basically guarantee you a price lock if you buy them early but will increase the closer it gets to the show date leaving people who waited last minute screwed.
It’s really scummy and they told me I could resell them when I receive them but I sent a pretty funny email calling out their business practices. I made sure the customer service rep knew I wasn’t bitching at them and let them in on the jokes. It was in no way hateful to the worker. I ended up being able to list my tickets early for resale
So if anyone wants tickets to see Silverstein/Dayseeker, I have a link for you. I have 2 tickets for sale. I really lose money but screw that website and scalpers. I won’t charge you more than what the real value is. I’m not going to punish anyone for my mistake so HMU if you need Myrtle Beach tickets for Silverstein/Dayseeker!
It’ll be ¼ what I ended up paying because I made a boneheaded mistake!
I was disassociating so bad and someone randomly sent me a message checking up on me. It broke me down into tears and I still haven’t stopped crying. I just needed someone to check on me and I didn’t even know it. I’ve been on the verge of a breakdown this whole time. Please check on your friends. I’m legitimately still crying over it.
Things have been so rough lately and I felt so disconnected. Check on your friends, please.
My mental state has been shit recently.
I’m ready to move on from this mental fog.
I’ll get through it, though. There’s always hope.
Some of these polls make me realize just how long I’ve been on Tumblr. The last reblogged poll I did was about fandoms and like… That wasn’t really a huge thing in early Tumblr. It existed but in the form of blogs name ‘fuckyeahtrueblood’ or 'fuckyeahsonic.’ it was originally just a conglomeration of individuals expressing who they are with anonymity. You had people posting what they wanted, when they wanted. You had 'Tumblr after dark.’ you had some fandom specific blogs but it was usually miniscule compared to the other content you would see here. Tumblarity was also a thing which helped make this place more lawless. Eventually fandoms grew and Tumblr itself became a fandom. The bone witch, the great Tumblr blackout, dashcon, and shoelace post/controversies became inside jokes. Then Tumblr kind of rebranded itself the more fandom heavy posts started getting popular. The porn ban helped solidify it being known as a fandom site.
It’s been a long time coming and it’s interesting to see how Tumblr has changed over the years and actually being here for it all.
what Fandom brought you to tumblr originally?? I’m curious
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